It's a new, dark and gloomy day! Looking back on my life, there has been a lot of experiences- some good, some bad. All taught me many things, though. And now, on the edge of a brave new world, the question is- how far down the rabbit hole do you want to go?
It all began when I was younger and in college. The nights were not easy for me, being depressed. As a funny coincidence, it was in a class covering diagnosis and evaluation of mental illness that I first learned that I had depression. All this study, and I never looked at my own symptoms. Dawn breaks on Marblehead! But a cure was in order- I used a prescription from Dr. Dubra- take a half liter of cheap-ass vodka and call me when you regain consciousness. This worked, to an extent. Alcohol does not cure depression, in fact, it is a central nervous system depressant, (drunk logic at work here) but it does dull your senses to the point of a peaceful apathy. As time went on, the booze was always there for me, in its self-destructive way. The problem came when drinking became an end in itself, not a means to an end. Fast forward six years or so.
Now I'm working, trying to get my life together. So far, so good. I'm looking to strike out on my own, be my own person for once. I hate to use the whole reinventing myself line, but that seems to be what it is. Finding out who I am apart from what people want me to be. And it's pretty darn cool, I must admit! I had to go through some rough seas, but every time I think about it, all I can see is the world stretching out ahead of me. It's just a question of hard work, really. Hard work has got me this far, and I believe it can carry me wherever I may want to go.
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