Run This Town

Since there's really not that much doing lately, that song has been stuck in my head lately. I don't know why, perhaps because I heard it so much in AIT. It seems like I've been spending a lot of time thinking back on the past lately, like my first days in the Army. It was tough, but worth it. And now, on regular duty and doing pretty well, it's going fairly well. Fort Sill is not really the best place to build a career, but I'm doing what I can to move forward. This actually came up with Tabatha today- I was telling her how I feel like things are in place, but can't seem to quite figure out where to start, or what the first step should be. It feels a lot like having a huge engine, but spinning it in neutral- which way to drive? That one left me wondering. Well, perhaps I was looking a little too high- she brought me back to earth, as she often will do. She said look at what's right in front of you, which was what I was thinking- okay, everything's right here in place, I've got all the resources I need, now where do I start? Surely there must be some higher, more esoteric purpose for my talents! Well, no, not actually. True, there's a lot that needs to be done, but you need to build a good foundation before you can move upwards.
But at any rate, it's good to have some kind of direction- I spent a good many more years than I would care to remember wandering around, kind of drifting along, without a purpose and clearly defined goal. I find that when this happens, it often leads to trouble for me. So the answer to that is, find a goal and stay focused, and if it turns out that it's not the best route to take, then rethink where you are and where you need to be. For guys like me, there's always a danger of overthinking things. But when it really comes down to it, I find instinct and reason to be the best bet to discover the right path, and sheer determination will get you where you need to go.