Happy Beltane everyone! It's that time of year again, wherein winter gives way to spring. This is a welcome change, and we marked it here in Oklahoma with pouring rain. Well, perhaps we didn't have much to do with the rain, but still, a somewhat ironic twist.
I have, surprisingly enough, a court date already for my divorce. The process here has been surprisingly easy, and from here it probably gets a little bit trickier, as we have the whole custody of the kids issue to deal with. My charming ex is determined to make me the bad guy- admittedly, took me a minute to realize that no matter what I did or said, I'm the bad guy. (No, not the bad guy pictured above- that's Baphomet, who is not technically a bad guy- sure does look like the Christian devil though, doesn't he?) But I digress. The point is, if I cured cancer, she would complain that I didn't cure world hunger too. It's somewhat funny, in a way. She seems to be a little too interested in playing the victim role in all of this, subjected to her cruel, uncaring ex husband who is concerned only with himself and his own ends. All I need is a top hat, black cape and pointy mustache and I'll be all set to play the villain. Surprisingly I'm not actually upset about this situation, and I know things will work out for the best. I know it's not very nice to say, but I'm glad to be rid of her and her family. Pretty much every I-hate-my-in-laws joke you can think of applied to me. I didn't like her family, and the feeling was mutual, covered more or less by a thin layer of civility. But then again, I didn't marry her family, nor do I want to go on ranting about how they put the 'fun' back in 'fundamentalist extremism'. No doubt I'm considered a lost cause by people such as this, destined for Hell. But even so, I'm a lot more comfortable in my own skin now, and kind of feel like for the first time I'm true to myself. There was a time I tried to be something I'm pretty obviously not. Yet change comes slowly to me- I'm mentally flexible in a lot of ways, but in others not so much. We all have our strong points and weak points, it would seem.
Nonetheless, happy Beltane everyone! May this spring, as always, bring you new hope for the future! I know my future is looking brighter every day!
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