Shake The Disease

Passive-aggressive. Emotionally constipated. Lacking initiative. Procrastinating. All these have been criticisms about me. Well, I welcome criticism. The natural response is to try and see only the good about yourself. The human ego is a fragile yet powerful force. But at any rate, I take these things to heart. I'll be the first to admit, me changing is like moving a mill stone- sure, you can do it, but it takes forever.
Yet the last couple months have really been ones of change. I've managed, to a large extent, to put aside ego and see things the way they really are. After that, the real challenge was not giving in to despair. Is it too long, has too much time passed, have I wasted too much time? All these questions plagued me for a while, but then I came to realize, it doesn't matter- what does matter is what you do with the time you have remaining.

Whether or not that sounds too New-Agey, I don't know. Might as well go out there and enjoy life, I don't know when or where I get more of it. Unfortunately, it seems karma dictates we all have to spend a part of our lives sitting in traffic, waiting for something to happen, or waiting for the next move. But even then, at least some good can come of it.