Well, it's another day in Paradise. Things are going great with my lady friend, who is so sweet and supportive! Every time I see her, I'm charmed all over again by her smile, the way she looks at me. Could it be that this is the girl I've waited all this time for? I sure think so! I'm not a lovestruck adolescent, and I know a relationship requires work. But at its core every good relationship has a deep and abiding love. And we do- never knew things worked like this! But it makes me want to go out and grab the world by the horns, or whatever else presents itself. Like someone once said, I'm here to kick ass and chew bubblegum, and I'm all out of gum! (Actually, in my case it would probably be kick ass and chew Black Jack, but you get the idea.)
The point being, there's never going to be another now- there's never going to be a better time, because now is the only time we have. The question is what to do with the time we have. Every time I talk to Kitty, I find myself thinking of a life with her- she always looks at me and says, "What?" How to tell her that I'm thinking I've found the one person I want to spend the rest of my life with? How to tell her all she means to me? There are only so many ways to say "I love you" and none of them seem to quite cover the depth of what I feel for her. But this is life, is it not? I keep saying it and saying it, how I need to get a new job, get my life together, etc. But it'll never happen unless I do it. That's what I've been spending most of today doing- filling out applications, chasing the almighty dollar. Especially since Kitty's parents are looking to rent out a house- it was something of an odd conversation really, starting with "My mom told me to tell you this..." Clearly, she has high hopes for her daughter and her new beau! So do I, actually. But that would be great- to be on my own again, to have our own place and own life. And I can't think of anyone I'd rather share it with!
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