Well, this one came out of left field! It seems my darling fiancee is a medium! I always suspected as much, although I lack her clarity, and had to struggle and study for what abilities I have. Not that it ever occurred to me to talk to the dead- my area of expertise (such as it is) is mysticism and shamanism, which does not come naturally to me, but has developed with practice. I don't have the precision to target single individuals, that would be like trying to dot an i with a cannon. I just don't have that kind of talent. However, I do have an analytical mind and am hoping to be able to interpret some of the more confusing visions she has.
Like yesterday. She really threw me for a loop when she described two people I knew and hadn't thought about in years, one my grandmother and another an old friend who passed away. There were others, although I'm having a tougher time with them. From T's notes, I was able to piece together a message, which was a fascinating one.
First, Tabatha mentioned that it seemed that I had called them- whoops, sorry to trouble you guys. Like I said, I'm really not that sophisticated in my abilities. However, what I noticed was that it was pretty obviously an encrypted message. If they wanted to talk to me, they wouldn't come right out and say it, they would send a coded message, knowing full well that I would look for patterns in it and try to decipher meaning from it. And so I did. There were four people who showed her letters- G, J, L and E. All these letters fall within the first 22 letters of the alphabet- there are also 22 cards in the Major Arcana of a Tarot deck, although I have yet to follow up on this angle at the time of writing.
The first thing I did was to find the rune equivalents to each one- this produced an interesting and meaningful result. First, the letter G corresponds to the rune Gebo, that is, a gift- more like a gift in terms of a talent or something given to make the world a better place- the type of thing that would benefit and enrich both the giver and the recipient. (If my father reads this, I'm sure I'll hear about any errors in interpretation, as he is much more knowledgeable about runes than I am). The second letter was L, corresponding to Laguz, the water rune. Water is a pretty expansive concept- I took it here to mean water as a source of life and sustainment, especially in light of the next rune. The next letter was J, corresponding to Jera- literally translated, either year or harvest. From this I took the meaning of both time and something developing- a harvest is both supported by the earth and develops over time- that is, it can't be rushed, but comes when it's darn good and ready to. The next letter is E, which corresponds to Ehwaz, meaning a horse. Again, a pretty broad concept, so I looked at how it interacted with the other runes. I saw how a horse is a symbol of strength and power, and is also a symbol that seems to keep cropping up (pun not intended) in my life. In light of the other runes, the horse seems to mean something sustained and kept going by the good earth that he walks on- in other words, he's supported by the earth that he himself is composed of. He receives the gifts the gods give to him, and is perfectly content to go about his daily task knowing that he's powerful enough to meet whatever challenge he may encounter.
There was also a figure of an old mentor, someone who passed away. I think he was there to be just that- a mentor. A horse is a good thing, and a powerful tool, but like all tools it needs a skilled hand to guide it- otherwise it can go astray, possibly hurting others or causing damage. Am I this horse? No, rather I'm perhaps in command of the horse, also sustained by the very earth I walk on. But use it wisely, seems to be the message. What has been given can be made to serve you, or it can destroy you.
I was able to identify two of the figures Tabatha saw, one as my grandmother, the other, oddly enough as former Trinity professor Hugh Ogden, who passed away several years ago in a New Year's day mishap. This was the mentor figure I saw, while I think my grandmother was there to offer a little encouragement- for some time I felt like I was on the wrong path, was making a mistake in my life. Her message seemed to be no, you're good- for once you found the right path, now don't go screwing it up!
Another interesting aspect to this is that T. described the Summerland, where many Pagans believe they go when they die. She described a field with a pond in the background, with a break between a stone wall and wooden fence- there were trees, and it was a large open field. The people she saw were standing in this gate- not going in, but rather having come from the field beyond the wall. It looked to me like they had come to deliver this message, and needed to pass on their message before either going back one way or the other- the Summerland is often thought of as not a permanent abode, but rather a way station on the way to one's next life or next incarnation. So either these people are back in the world, or are heading back out into the world. I'm not certain of this, however, and the message seems to contain no indication on this front. But the message is clear, although there are more layers of meaning in it that I have yet to uncover. I'll keep at it and see what else I can find. Apart from that, I get the feeling that before I can really make use of whatever is available, I need to first learn how to use it. At this point, I'm looking for a starting point, some clue that will provide enough insight to take me to the starting point- from there, I guess it's just a question of following the road.
"Whatever is lost can be found- if sought."
-Shakespeare
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